I debated weather or not to post these pictures for days...You see...I have been hiding for a long time...hiding from others and from myself...I have been so embarrassed of my weight and what I look like that it has effected my life...daily...I have never posted a picture on facebook (or anywhere else)of anything but my face...EVER...when my boys grow up...they will have few pictures of me with them...because anytime a camera comes out...I hide...when I visit my hometown...I rarely leave the house in fear that someone I grew up with will see me...and I avoid looking at pictures of myself...because...well...the truth is hard to accept...It's hard to be so afraid of failure to even try to better yourself...BUT...in order to succeed...I have to take control of my fear...I have to stop hiding...I am who I am...and the amazing thing is...if I don't like something about myself...I can choose to change it...and I have chosen just that...to change my body and the way I see myself...April 1 I started the Advocare 24 day challenge...and I made it...I have lost a total of 18.4 lbs and I have no idea how many inches...I could kick myself for not measuring my body when I started... but sadly... I wasn't ready to face it...the scale was all I could take that day...I took these photos on day 1 and day 23...same clothes...same hair and same spot... I apologize for the lack of make up...I was forced to take both sets of pictures at the last minute...but now... I'm glad I did...sharing these photos is very hard for me...I'm so afraid of putting myself out there...because I don't want to be judged or made fun of...but if I can do it...anyone can...and it's nice to finally be proud of something...
The challenge is over...and I so glad I chose to do it...I am FAR from my goal weight...so...I am going to treat myself to a "cheat day"...have a great meal...and start the Max phase all over again tomorrow!
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